One afternoon at my job a couple of years back, an notification hit on my phone: my salary had been deposited. It was a fair amount for a student, so I did my usual payday ritual: I opened every single retail application on my phone. Amazon, Vinted, Etsy, Depop, Zara, you name it. Within the space of an hour, I had parted with £90 on apparel, home decor and a completely unused heavy blanket that never touched.
A few days later, I returned to the internet and purchased a blow dryer. I already had one, but thought another couldn't hurt. Then I added light strips and two pairs of shoes that didn't even fit me. This wasn’t new behaviour. In fact, I’d been notorious for it ever since I could afford to buy my own things.
Whenever I felt stressed, tired or bored, I would doomscroll until it always culminated in an unplanned shopping binge. My excuse was constantly: “It's only £5.” But £5 turned into £10, then £20, and continued.
I was never completely sure about the reason. Perhaps it was because my upbringing in a low-income family, where we’d go months without purchasing new outfits or anything to brighten up the house. So any time I had extra money, there was always a hidden desire for new and thrilling things. Or possibly, and almost certainly, I was just financially irresponsible and gave in readily to the lure of demands.
Eventually, I opted to experiment with a novel idea. Before acquiring anything, I’d put it in my digital cart, delay for 24 hours, then decide on whether to check out. The best part of this technique was that it provided me space to think – an action I’d never done before. For the first time since adulthood, I began questioning: “Do I truly require this? Is it within my budget?” More often than not, the response was negative.
If I accessed Amazon, Depop or Zara and found items lingering in my basket, I’d remove them and start fresh. Using this system, I ceased acquiring things that I knew deep down I would never use. I once considered buy a trio of games, but after waiting before visiting the shop, I realised I never actually engage with tabletop games.
I also wanted to buying a disposable film camera for my first holiday to Croatia. After waiting I remembered I had a phone, like most people, that features a perfectly adequate lens, and therefore had no requirement to buy a dedicated camera.
It also signifies I am more selective about the things I do purchase, and I can at last look at my financial records without experiencing guilt or discomfort.
Of course, there have been occasions I’ve relapsed into previous habits – it’s only natural. The key change is that I can identify the warning signs sooner, especially when I’m hastening into a transaction. I’ve realised ennui is a strong trigger. It’s perhaps the primary driver of my reckless spending.
Modern culture exploits this idleness and our desire for instant satisfaction. That’s the reason, in hindsight, compelling myself to halt before purchasing has felt unexpectedly freeing. Gaining command over my urges and reaffirming that I don’t need to expend my diligently earned money on unnecessary goods feels as revolutionary as it is simple.
Lena is a seasoned gaming analyst with a passion for helping players navigate the world of online jackpots safely and successfully.